Wipe Out

This morning we went to the beach to watch my #3 nephew (son of sister #1) and brother-in-law (husband of sister #2) get baptized! Steadfast had left for work around 5 am (Cloud Factory Outage still in progress) but he was able to leave work for a while to witness the events at 9:30 am. It's now 8:30 pm and he's still at work...

After the baptisms, I came home and took a nap... I just woke up.... This seems to be my pattern after a miscarriage... The first day I'm fine & courageous... the second day I shed one or two drops of tears in moments I have my guard down, but I'm still stalwart... the third day I completely melt down and make an emotional mess on boards all over the internet... and the fourth day I sleep.... and the fifth day I'm usually back to my "normal" level of sanity...

Thank goodness for teen daughters who are willing and able to take charge of the household for a day. I still feel wiped out, but I know tomorrow will bring fresh hope.


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Kim said…
{{{HUGSS!!!}}} Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.
12 September, 2004 07:26
Lisa said…
I'm sorry, just plain old sorry. (((HUGS)))
13 September, 2004 05:12
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